I'm Thankful

This year has been very rough on me and my family but I still have a lot to be thankful for. My mom was diagnosed with congestive heart failure and even though she is living on oxygen and has a lot of  other health issues she is dealing with, I still have her around to talk to everyday and I am thankful for that. 
My dad was diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer and that is one of the hardest things I have been through in my life. He went through hell but he beat cancer and I am thankful for that.
Since I was my parents main caregiver and financial support system, I lost my car and that was embarrassing and painful. Cars are replaceable though. I still have an older car that is paid off that is still running and I am thankful for that.
We can't afford to buy Christmas presents this year and I know that really hurts my parents because this is the first year they won't be able to. I explained to them that we are all adults now and we understand that it isn't possible. We are thankful that we have each other to spend the Holidays with, even if it may be in the hospital.
I know I haven't technically lost her, but I feel like I have lost my best friend. The person that was always there for me the past 7 years when my other friends weren't or couldn't be, moved away. I know she is still there for me but it still makes me sad knowing I can't see her whenever I want to. She is still one of my best friends and I am glad she is still there for me, even if it isn't in person, and I am thankful for that.
I have two other friends that I was close to over the years off and on and we have rekindled our friendship this year and it has definitely helped me through these past few months. If they weren't there for me, I don't know how I would have got through it. I am glad I have the few friends I have and I am thankful for them.
My sister and boyfriend have helped me mentally through this year.  My sister with making me laugh and just being there for me in person. My boyfriend for calming me down when I always need someone to talk to. They both mean the world to me and I am thankful for them. 
Even though you have a crappy year and you don't think you can make it, there will always be someone there to help you through it. Even though there are days I feel like I am alone and I become bitter towards everyone and everything, at the end of the day, I am thankful for my friends, family, and life itself. I have had a lot put on me this year and it is normal to have little mental breakdowns here and there. It is the way I deal with a stress overload. Just because I am thankful for all of these things, doesn't mean I won't struggle here and there to accept why all this had to happen. I think too much and try to understand everything and I will never have an answer to my questions but this is my own battle and I will be okay. I wrote this post to hopefully help cope with this year and to try to move on. It brings me down too often and I don't like it one bit but this is a process and things will get better. 

Jewelry giveaway coming soon!

     Hey guys! I am going to be doing my first giveaway very soon but I want your feedback first. I want to know what you guys want. The piece of fashion jewelry from 'Premier Designs' with the most votes, I will do a giveaway for. Who knows, I may even pick the piece of jewelry with the second highest votes for another giveaway in the future as well. Please comment with which piece of jewelry you would love to have.

Bracelet # 1

Bracelet # 2

Necklace # 1

Necklace # 2

Necklace # 3

Necklace with bracelet set # 1

Necklace with earrings set # 2

Sunday Social

I am participating in my first "Sunday Social" with Ashley and Neely.  This weeks questions are all about music.
1. What is your all-time favorite song?

This is such a hard question to ask but I will love different songs randomly and for different amounts of time but I will go with the first song that popped into my head and that is "I want to dance with somebody" by Whitney Houston

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2. Who is your favorite singer/band?

I love Rascal flatts, Hunter Hayes, Mariah Carey, and Alicia Keys

3. What song reminds you of your childhood?

Ginuwine - Pony

Nelly's Country Grammar

You got it bad by Usher 

Man oh man, I could go on forever with these videos!

4. What songs put you in a good mood?
I want crazy by Hunter Hayes comes to mind but anything upbeat

5. What is your music to rock out to in your car?

Usher!

6. What is the most embarrassing album or song you own?

I'm not really embarrassed by any albums or songs but I liked them all at one point but I guess knowing that I have every, since album from Nsync might embarrass someone...fyi I still listen to them, ha!

Smiley360 Mission- Click to help me out :)

Cancer is evil

     Today I took my dad to his oncologist to get some fluids because he is super weak and losing a lot of weight and a shot because his white blood count is low and I had a breakdown. As I dropped him off at the front door, I watched his scrawny self struggle to walk to the front door. He walks so slow and it takes so much out of him. I can see his shoulder blades poking out of his shirt. I watch him slowly walk to the front door as he holds his, too big for him now, pants up because we can't afford new clothes right now. Within seconds, I burst out into tears.

     No one deserves to get cancer but especially not my dad. He was never a drinker, he was never a smoker, rarely got sick and was only in the hospital once his entire life. Now, since January he has been admitted into the hospital four times so far. With blood transfusions, dehydration, nausea, and vomiting, my Dad does not deserve this. A man who has always put everyone first his whole life and still does now. A man who would do anything to make you laugh/smile. A man who has already struggled financially his whole life because he helps out others. So, why him? I just don't get why he has to go through this.

     I could probably ask so many more questions and say so many more reasons on why he doesn't deserve this but it won't change the fact that I hate cancer and it is evil!

A bear that was given to him at chemo from a foundation here in town

Just some of the cards he has received. He is loved by all. Such a great man, my hero, my dad. 

Follow up post - York

I just wanted to post the pictures from my coffee mug I got my Dad from York photo. They did an amazing job! My dad just loves his coffee mug, he uses it for everything he drinks!

Originial post HERE

WW 5/22/13

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